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It wasn’t long before everything started falling into place. It was actually less than a month before Katie, myself and another friend of ours attended the weekend program that Katie and I had signed up for. It was absolutely amazing. As we went through the weekend, all the things that I seemed to do naturally when I was at my best finally made sense. I could see how the mind worked. I was able to see how communicating in specific ways with myself, and with others made such a difference in the results I would get. We learned about how human beings do things in specific ways that are called “patterns”, and how by understanding these patterns you could heighten these experiences allowing yourself to achieve more consistent results, or use the understandings of those patterns to change behaviors. We learned about how each person has specific “strategies” that they run internally when it comes to being motivated, being attracted to someone and falling in love. We learned how to recognize our own strategies and how to use them to get ourselves motivated for things we were procrastinating on, or to rekindle a love. Everything was falling into place.
Then we started discussing belief systems and how they affect everything that we do, or do not do in our lives. As we started discussing the power of these belief systems, I realized that this was the place that I had stopped on the tape series at home. When we went through the process and did the exercises, I learned so many things about myself, and what had been preventing me from really breaking through to all the dreams I had for myself. It was during this process that I learned that many of the core beliefs that I had about myself were actually very limiting and fear based.
That weekend was a stepping off point for a quantum leap in the levels of understanding I would come to have of myself and the world around me. It began a supersonic journey into a deeper understanding of Spirituality and my knowledge of the innermost workings of the human mind. Over the course of the next year, I participated in seminars all over the country. I read more books on the subjects of psychology, hypnosis, Spirituality, metaphysics, and energy than I had in my entire life. Finally all of the things I had been utilizing as tools for recovery, and the questions I had regarding my life and the universal mysteries seemed to be falling into place.
I not only studied these things but I started applying them at a nuclear pace. For me, my life was all finally making sense. All the things that I had experienced and studied were falling into place. Even when I was a child, I had always been intrigued by what made people do the things they did. Through high school and college, I was always a problem solver when it came to dealing with other people’s problems. Out of a desire to avoid dealing with my own problems, I would focus on solving other people’s and I seemed to pick up understanding psychology easily. Then as a part of getting sober, I was directed to look at these aspects of human behavior at even more intense levels. Over the 8 years from getting sober until I went to my first one-day seminar, I had read many books on self-help and personal development. I had looked into different religious practices in working to define my own Higher Power. And I had done exhaustive inner exploration as well as being a guide for others who were on the journey of recovery. Because of all this preparation, within 5 months of going to my first one-day seminar I was offered a position by Bob Quintana as one of his coaching staff.
It seemed as if all the things I had gone through in my life were now falling into place. Just as Mary Natoli had said that day in rehab, I was now using my experiences to be able to help other people. When she first said that to me, it meant nothing. But over the years that idea has taken on so much meaning for me that it had become a guiding force in my life by this time. I truly had come to believe that I had some higher purpose. I knew deep inside that I was destined to fulfill a major mission in my life, though I wasn’t sure what it would be. Now, I was floating on a cloud. Finally all of my plans on how I was going to leave my mark on this world were making sense.
Around my second year in sobriety, I had made a commitment that I was going to do something that would make a major difference in this world. I was going through a process of reviewing my past and accepting accountability for my actions. I looked at the trail of destruction that had seemed to follow me everywhere I had gone while I was drinking, and I realized that the destruction was caused by my actions. In accepting accountability for those actions, I also accepted a certain responsibility. As a way of making amends for those past deeds, I resolved that I would become a success by using the gifts that God had given me, such as my voice and my ability to write music. And with that success, I swore that I would affect positive change in the lives of others. I knew that I may never see some of those people that I had crossed in the past, and that as an offering to them, I would do whatever I could to make others lives better as a way of saying I was sorry to those I hurt. From my perception, I had hurt a lot of people, so I had a lot of work ahead, but that was fine. It was all falling into place, my purpose was clear. I was here to inspire, educate and empower.
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The Warrior Sage Chapter/Section
Who Is Willard Barth?
Preface - Exploring Strength And Weakness
Chapter 1:1 - The Process Of Self-Awareness
Chapter 1:2 The Stages Of Child Development
Chapter 2:1 The World Changed Forever
Chapter 2:2 The Vicious Cycle Begins
Chapter 2:3 Losing Faith
Chapter 2:4 My Dark Secret
Chapter 2:5 Where Is The Love I Was Promised?
Chapter 3:2 The Road To Alcohol Dependence
Chapter 3:3 Leaving My Childhood Behind
Chapter 3:4 Escaping Responsibility; The Joy Ride Ends
Chapter 3:5 Living A Duality Begins
Chapter 3:6 Out Of Control
Chapter 3:7 Crossing The Line To Insanity
Chapter 3:8 The Black-out Drinking Begins
Chapter 3:9 Facing The Music
Chapter 3:10 A New Beginning
Chapter 3:11 More Lessons To Learn
Chapter 4:1 The Final Party
Chapter 4:2 A Moment Of Clarity
Chapter 4:3 My New Life Begins
Chapter 4:4 Sober, Time To Face The World
Chapter 4:5 The First Year Of Sobriety
Chapter 4:6 Major Change Comes In Year Two
Chapter 4:7 My Daughter Is Born April 20, 1992
Chapter 5:1 Life Changing Decisions Follow My Daughter's Birth
Chapter 5:2 Recognizing The Voice Inside
Chapter 5:3 The Empress Hotel
Chapter 5:4 A New Chapter In My Life Begins
Chapter 6:1 Finding My Way Home
Chapter 6:2 Falling Into Place
Chapter 6:3 A New Awareness
Chapter 6:4 Personal Finances And Personal Development
Chapter 6:5 The George Washington Story
Chapter 6:6 Letting Go So Others Can Grow
Chapter 6:7 The Wrap Up
Jump HOME from Falling Into Place